Depression

I'm just so dreppressed lately, it's been 2 months and I haven't changed at all, the heart attacks stopped, but now I feel so empty inside. Makenna apologized yesterday, and I just said "ok" I don't even know what that means. Depression is hitting me everyday, but I have to act like nothings happening for everyone else, but I don't know how long it'll last, last weekend I just felt like nothing at all matters anymore, not even me, something really bad would have happened if phillip (my brother) didn't come running down stairs, but it happened again today, Don't know what to do, I feel like I should just end it, just........ stop it all..... I don't even know if I actaully forgiven her, I just hope I can last long enough until everything is turned around for everyone and it slowly is....... but too slowly, I'm losing my mind, I keep having headaches, and pains, saddness and anger, I just want it all to stop, and I can only think of one way...........